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Up and down mostly, those are my emotions XD Just listening to the Elder Scrolls Online soundtrack and it is awesome . Been doodling some more black and white pics too, though I made this mistake on a couple leaves and I'm still not sure how to cover it up
Was also able to cheer up a friend last night so the past couple days weren't all bad. In other news, I hate seeing my mom cry because of what someone says... Freakin' ticks me off just cause...
My mind's all over the place, but I'm hoping me seeing this doctor and other lady will help me, she gave me some homework, deep breathing to do.
So far I think it's starting to help, but I need to practice it until I've got it down whenever I need to calm my anxiety down.
I'm also selling prints of my pics: madmother88.deviantart.com/gal…
So they're just $2 US dollars a page, or 3 for 5. Color them, hang them up as they are, whatever. I need money D:
Wanna play FFX again but I guess I'm just afraid I'll get so into it I'll forget to eat and stuff XD like I've done before with Skyrim. You forget to eat sleep and make friends, because you're too busy eating, sleeping and making friends!
If you don't recognize that line, you need to watch the honest trailers: Skyrim lol!
You should also try out the anime Silver Spoon, it's cute.
That's it for now, bai bai
Was also able to cheer up a friend last night so the past couple days weren't all bad. In other news, I hate seeing my mom cry because of what someone says... Freakin' ticks me off just cause...
My mind's all over the place, but I'm hoping me seeing this doctor and other lady will help me, she gave me some homework, deep breathing to do.
So far I think it's starting to help, but I need to practice it until I've got it down whenever I need to calm my anxiety down.
I'm also selling prints of my pics: madmother88.deviantart.com/gal…
So they're just $2 US dollars a page, or 3 for 5. Color them, hang them up as they are, whatever. I need money D:
Wanna play FFX again but I guess I'm just afraid I'll get so into it I'll forget to eat and stuff XD like I've done before with Skyrim. You forget to eat sleep and make friends, because you're too busy eating, sleeping and making friends!
If you don't recognize that line, you need to watch the honest trailers: Skyrim lol!
You should also try out the anime Silver Spoon, it's cute.
That's it for now, bai bai
Missing pieces
I feel...off. Things between me and someone is over, I know. Yet, I still can't help but feel willing to just have some kind of heart heart talk with them. I hurt so badly back then, and I just...gave up. I did at last accept that I was abused emotionally and mentally. Neglected, and no it's never fair, is it? That one I called my best friend... I'm sure she's done with me cause I couldn't grow as fast as she was able to. It's been a long time, I'm trying new things. My childhood was filled with me screaming and breaking things cause nobody stopped to see WHY I was acting out like that. Nobody thought that maybe, there's something wrong at home? Even when I started cutting myself just for some kind of relief... No one said a thing. I wish I could go back to those days, even when my dad was there hurting me everyday. At least I believed I had a real friend. She made those days survivable, gave me relief. Then came this stupid misunderstanding, she bullied me, let others bully me too.
Bamboozled
Long story really short. Went in for bronchitis, came back from hospital cause I was running around with freking Pneumonia all week long! :stare:
But things got so busy and stressful just when I was trying to RP again! Then I felt sick, so run down and then the cough started and blah blah…
Anywho, I'm finally back home with some extra oxygen and feeling better, not just cause of the meds(although they did help lol), but knowing I got real care! The people at the hospital were all so nice and took great care of me! Plus I had room service so that was awesome too lol. My poor mother though, she stayed with me all through the nights I sp
Erp?
I was just thinking about playing Kingdom Hearts 2 again, then I was inquiring about something for games, and my mom just said that she was hoping I'd stop gaming one year. For some reason, it hurt to hear that. I don't always get social clues, I still have to ask people if something's 'appropriate', and I can't think like 'normal people'. Games have been one of my only escapes.
They help my mind calm down or vent out frustration and the stories pull me in and help me cope with things. I don't know how else to explain how it makes me feel, but like music, they just help, they help me think. I think I've been told that I try to please everyon
ARK
I got the game Ark! Now the question: how the frick do you tame?? I've been trying to tame dinos but I can't get a command prompt? For the xbox I mean. So if anyone has answers, thank you!! :D
In other news, I'm feeling better, just trying to keep busy. Trying to draw more, cause I wanna draw more Sphinxes and stuff XD May update later...
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